Ok, so obviously, it’s been a while since I’ve posted. Life has been amazingly crazy! So, bare with me as I info dump…
Now that I’m back at work and it’s been a little over a month, here is the rundown of how that’s been going. Let’s start from the beginning.
What I Expected:
Insane amounts of tears, some bathroom sobbing and a complete inability to concentrate on anything besides getting home to my baby.
What I Got:
A feeling of accomplishment coming home at the end of the day and knowing that not only would I now be a contributing member of the household but also a huge appreciation for every giggle, tear and smile that Sofia gives.
Why This Was Shocking
I have wanted to be a stay at home Mom my whole life. When I thought about myself with children I always pictured being at home doing laundry, cooking and living life around their cute, adorable, finicky schedule. Don’t get me wrong, I adore every second that I spent at home with Sofia but there was something nice about getting up in the morning and getting dressed for a purpose. Preparing for a schedule that didn’t revolve around a diaper change and bottle was surprisingly…nice. Oh, and let’s not forget, the paycheck. That’s one hell of an incentive!
Now that it’s been a little over a month, I’m still hanging in there. I finally had my day-o-meltdown when Sofie turned 6 months old. I cried while nursing her before work, cried on my way to work…it was an all around emotional day but I feel that my current decision to be back at work is actually what’s best for our family. It provides us with an extra level of financial cushion, it keeps Mommy sane and since we were able to find affordable child care, financially it still makes sense. Maybe after future (very far from now, future) babies the time away vs. incoming cash ratio may no longer make good fiscal sense. But we’ll cross that bridge when we get to it.