Sofia slept through the night last night for 8 hours straight, pretty incredible for her 6lb12oz self! She tried doing this earlier in the week and Mommy freaked out and woke her up for a feed that she was less than interested in and only took 1 ounce subsequently. This time I still prepped her bottle at 2am anticipating her waking up buy surprisingly, she didn’t. I still was the one to wake her at 6am and she was still only mildly interested in bottle and much more intent on snuggling. I think she was giving me a good night sleep bc she knew today was my interview day.
Here I am now, pumping pre interview with my hair and make-up done, work clothes on, having just passes the reins to a baby sitter! This is a first. I’ve had the duty passed off to me from many mothers throughout my teen years and now it’s my turn. I wonder if thy were all this nervous! Buy now the million dollar question begs a response…am I ready to go back to work?!
Do I want to be a stay at home Mommy there to wipe every tear, see every new development? Do I want my career? Do I want Sofia to see a Mommy who could have her career flavored cake and got to eat it too? Hal of me says stay home, be covered in spit up and rarely make it to blow dry your hair! The other part says, think of what you can give her when she sees a strong “business woman” and you aren’t counting pennies at the end of the month. Maybe I just need to put one foot in front of the other and see if I get an offer first! Sigh, guess I’ll take it one baby step at a time.
